thanksgiving for the blessings given

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

And all the while You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

And what if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can’t satisfy?

And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?

recently, two dear friends of mine showed this song to me, Blessings by Laura Story.  Literally when this song started playing, and i listened to the lyrics, i couldnt help but break down and cry.  i felt like this song really did capture everything i was thinking and helped remind me of what i needed to remember.  It also reminded me of a chapter in Philippians about thanksgiving...and i thought...what do i have to be thankful for??? and surprisingly it wasnt hard to find many things.  i thot how lucky i was to be able to be home to take care of my family, had i done the classes at irvine i wouldnt be able to take care of them...i also thot how thankful i was for having the heart to accept Christ and for my brothers and sisters.  before aacf, i had put up walls, my heart was calloused, and it was hard for me to truly trust anyone.  i wasnt expecting anything my freshman year...but i feel like everyone in aacf, they broke down those walls and softened my heart.  they made me feel comfortable to trust others and that i wouldnt be hurt after making myself vulnerable.  the relationships that i was able to make this year was so helpful in this time of hardship.  but most of all, i have the hope and the faith in God that He's soveriegn and will take care of everything.  I just need to remember that through this journey.  I guess this entire year, my freshman year, was God's way of providing, preparing me for what would happen later on.